I mention this because I talked to my therapist about how I've been doing yoga and I don't feel like it's helped enough, and he told me that yoga was a great way to reduce symptoms, but it wasn't really the place to work on my issues. I think he's right.
I've created a comfortable life for myself and gotten comfortable in it. I've realized the reason I've been missing my ex so much is that he, too, was a comfort when things got tough. And comfort is wonderful. But I want more than that. I want joy.
It's not a completely foreign feeling, but it's something I know I need to work at finding more of in my life. Yoga brings me comfort. Running, I have realized, brings me joy. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to go in a week due to being scared to run while on the cleanse, and my lower back deciding to go crazy yesterday.
Other things I will be trying in my pursuit of joyousness:
- Team in Training
- doing more new things (they don't call it a comfort zone for nothing)