Sunday, September 18, 2011

Cleansy?

I was going to start my cleanse today, and then I got a dinner invitation from a friend to a restaurant I've been dying to try, so I decided that tomorrow would work, too.
This week:  going vegan, and giving up coffee/alcohol/processed foods.  The toughest one is going to be alcohol, as it's awkward to go to social stuff and not be drinking.  We'll see.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

week in review

The vegan transition did not go as amazingly as hoped.  Mostly because a dinner with friends on Tuesday resulted in mac and cheese, a burger, and wings, but they were all totally worth it. 

Injuries seem to have abated, perhaps because work craziness has forced me to take some unintended rest days.  I have a workout heavy weekend (Bar Method, yoga, hiking, all on Saturday) planned, so we'll see how that turns out.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Cleanse?

I know I've said I don't believe in cleanses.  But for some mostly emotional reasons, I'm going to try one.
Week 1:  Ease into veganism.  I am making real cheesecake tonight and I will eat it.
Week 2:  Actual veganism.  Also cutting out alcohol, coffee, diet coke, etc.
Week 3:  Raw vegan.
Week 4:  All liquids.  If I successfully make it through the preceding three weeks and break a bad habit or two along the way, I'm treating myself to one of those juice cleanses where they deliver to your door.

If I make it through all four weeks, I am finally redecorating my bedroom.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Outdoor yoga

Was.  AMAZING. 

I get all jealous of these New Yorkers and their Central Park things, so when there was a Salutation Nation event in my (smaller and inferior and usually full of homeless drug addicts) central park, I went. 

The weather was perfect - cool and a little overcast.  The class started out with a longer than usual (the instructor actually teaches at my gym so I'm familiar with his usual class style) meditation, which was really nice.  We then went through four different Sun Salutation sequences, and then threw in a few trees, eagles, backbends, and twists for good measure.  The pace was somehow both stimulating and relaxing and was exactly what I needed on a Saturday morning.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Back.

Injuries seem to have abated, for now.  Trying to get back in the swing of things despite hellish work hours.

Tomorrow I'm trying a running group.  We'll see how it goes.  Afterward if I'm not too exhausted, there's a free outdoor yoga class in the park that's two blocks from me, so I'm going to give that a try.

...and then I'm driving to the desert for an Oktoberfest, so I am making no exercise commitments for the rest of the weekend.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Catharsis

It is probably for the best that I am the only one that ever reads this blog.  If you're somehow not me, I know this is supposed to be all health/fitness/food related, but please excuse me for a self-indulgent rant about my life.

That whole thing about magic internet fairies making things happen for me?  Well, it worked.  Kind of.  I guess I need to be more specific.
I am only interested in getting my ex back if he's willing to realize that I am a human being with thoughts and feelings who wants to be someone's partner, not someone who can be fit into one's life only when it's convenient. 
I want work I'm actually excited about with people I'm excited to work with.  Preferably in New York.  In fact, definitely in New York (there is probably a reason I almost exclusively read fitness blogs based in NYC).

Internet fairy rant complete.  On the health side, things have been going okay, physically.  I'm mostly over last week's back weirdness, and despite not really monitoring what I've been eating, my weight has stayed reasonable.

And then there's mental health, which I think a lot of people forget is something we need to take care of along with the physical.  I have not been doing great with that.  I cancelled my appointment with my therapist this week, and that could not have come at a worse time.  I'm...actually looking forward to going next Tuesday. 
Fortunately, this morning I realized that a lot of my grumpiness and body issues can be attributed to the fact that it's been way too long since I've been to yoga.  Went this morning and felt way better.

I've been in a not great place mentally for a few months now, and it's never fun, and it's even less fun because it's easy to forget that I've been in places like this before, because as soon as things get good again, you just forget all the bad stuff ever happened.  I feel like I'm beating myself up over perceived mental weakness now, but I forget that a year and a half ago I was having mild panic attacks all the time.  And I got through it, sans medication or professional help, though looking back on it, the latter might have helped. 
So all of this seems bad.  But I will make it through.  I just have to keep reminding myself of that.