Still on track(ish)

So, WW weigh in was today, and I did okay, mostly, I think, due to wearing different shoes.  Down .2lbs.  Considering I ate terribly this week, I'll call that a win.
Trying to get back on track this week, though that's been derailed by being too lazy/sick to grocery shop.  And too sick to work out to the extent I'd like.  We'll see how it turns out.

Where did my grapefruit go?

Mindful eating, take two.  Seriously, not three minutes ago I had just cut open a grapefruit and now it is gone.  Part of this is I was hungry, part of this was I just devoured it without thinking.  The same thing happened with my soup at lunch today (though I didn't eat all of the noodles, which was something of a triumph).  I think my problem right now is that I feel like I never have the time to pause to just eat, but I guess I should also factor in the time I'd save if I didn't worry so much about what I was eating.

Dissecting my week of fail

So as I sit here trying to summon the motivation to remove myself from the couch and make another cup of tea, I thought I might try and learn some lessons from this week to make the next one suck less.
I think the biggest problem was that I kind of hit a wall with Weight Watchers this week.  After thinking I'd been pretty good all last week and then only losing .2lbs, I got kind of frustrated.  And the frustration leads to the moment where it's like 'wait a minute, I don't really need to lose the weight, I don't really need to be doing this, I'm just going to start eating whatever I want.'  Fortunately, I'm realizing for the first time that when I do eat whatever I want, it doesn't always feel that great.  The fancy lunch I went out for on Tuesday was good, but I feel like I ate a lot without really thinking about it and enjoying it, I just went to this crazy place where I felt like I had to inhale food for no reason.  It's been awhile since I've felt like that, so it was kind of scary.  And Thursday's mac/chz/beer disaster wasn't much better.  I knew I didn't need the third beer, and definitely regretted it the next morning, but I felt like I had to keep up with my boyfriend to prove I was still the fun, beer drinking, junk eating girl he met before I started trying to do all this health stuff.
That all said, I didn't go totally awry this week.  All of my breakfasts and most of my lunches were pretty healthy.  I resisted the temptation to drink at dinner last night, because I knew I wanted to still be able to go to the gym.  I keep wanting to stop tracking my WW points for the rest of the week, but I know that it won't actually help anything not to, so I'm sticking with it.
I've also been realizing I need to do more of this 'mindful eating' I hear so much about.  I always thought it was a bunch of bull, but there have been way too many times this week I've started eating a granola bar at my desk and the next thing I've looked down and it's been gone, and I barely remember eating it.  That is all kinds of alarming.  The problem is that a) I have a lot of work and b) I'm easily bored, so it's really hard for me to do things like just eat and do nothing else, like I know one is technically supposed to.  I think my plan for next week is to allow myself to mindlessly munch healthy things (baby carrots, fruit, etc.) but if I'm having something that actually costs points and I actually want to enjoy, I'm going to have to focus on it while eating it.  We'll see how it goes.  And, while I'm on things I should try doing, I'm going to attempt to eat only when at least somewhat hungry, instead of feeling obligated to finish off everything I've packed for lunch even if I don't want it.

Exercise conundrum

So I've read about Core Fusion in a bunch of fitness blogs and am dying to try it.  The class descriptions sound amazing, and the prices aren't completely unreasonable.  The problem is that the closest place is an hour or so away from where I live, and I know it would be really hard for me to commit to making that drive on a regular basis.  I know I could try it once just to have done it, but I'd hate to love it and not be able to go back.  I already pay an absurd amount for a gym membership because it's close to me and I'm so much more likely to go if I can just walk to the gym.  The compromise, of course, would be to do Bar Method which I believe is similar and is also closer to me, but the Core Fusion prices are actually a lot cheaper, and include yoga as well. 

Epic fail

So, my effort to recover from a couple of crappy days did not pan out so much.  It has officially been kind of a Bad Week.  A good workout day on Thursday somehow turned into too many beers and a lot of mac and cheese, resulting in me skipping Friday morning's planned workout.  Long day at work, I had dinner plans I was lukewarm about but didn't want to cancel on, and ended up going home and doing 45 minutes on the elliptical so as not to feel like a complete slug.  I had really nice ambitions for yoga/pilates/a run today, but I woke up in the middle of the night with a sore throat, and this morning seems to have proven that this is not dehydration related, but is in fact the onset of the cold that everyone I know except me seems to have gotten.  I made it to yoga this morning, but it did not feel great.  I'm going to be bummed about missing pilates as I really like the Saturday class, but I've got a big week at work coming up and I can't really afford to be sick for it.  So, it looks like couch + Slanket + Netflix Instant + tea = the rest of my Saturday.

Reset.

The past two days have sucked.  Suuuuuuuucked.  Mostly work, and yesterday it just felt like everything went not as planned.  None of this was helped by the cat whining all night and causing me to get about 4 hours of sleep.
But then.  I actually managed to be productive at work today.  I only ate two cookies worth of feelings.  I went to pilates and yoga, and yoga somehow was shorter than usual, enabling me to get home so as to cook dinner/do laundry/get caught up on life.  I have a good plan for workouts the rest of the week, so, maybe the worst is over?

Blerg!

Well, there went that.
Probably ate more than I should have last night.  Not sure if it was that or my large sweater, but I only weighed in at -.2lbs from last week.  And went right from weigh in to a giant lunch out, which was delicious, but way too much food.  I started getting that scary intense "I just want to eat until it hurts" feeling, which is never a good sign for me.
Work sucked all afternoon, I left later than I planned, grocery shopping took forever, so I came home and had a giant spoonful of Nutella.  Incorrect, I know.  And I'm now following that up with a pre-workout snack of diet Coke and cheesecake (but it's light cheesecake).  This sounds bad, but at least I'm doing the workout, which the old version of me would have definitely not done.
Hoping to get back on track tomorrow, but due to an offsite thing for work I'm not going to be able to pack lunch.  If I get enough work stuff done tonight, I can do pilates and yoga tomorrow, so that'll help.