Good and bad

So obviously I have not kept up with posting, due to a horrifying lack of internet in my new apartment.

The good news is I have been working out a lot. Maybe too much.  I have lost 3ish pounds.

The bad news is I have been eating really weirdly, due to lack of time/desire to cook.  Also have been drinking way too much.  This week I have had exactly one beer since Sunday, so this is progress.

Did a bar method class this morning (just purchased a 5 pack from yelp), and I'm planning on getting a membership for at least a month once those five classes are used.

Other than that, my life is sort of a disaster right now so it's nice that I have exercise to throw a little sanity into the mix.

Sometimes it just feels better to give in

So I drank probably more than I should have last night.  Which led to me having a sausage, egg, and cheese McGriddle this morning.  And, like missing workouts, I'm not going to beat myself up over it.  It was delicious and totally worth it.  I'm going to rise like a phoenix from the ashes/gross wrappers that have calorie counts written on them.

This week, I'm going to try logging all my meals/workouts here.  We'll see how it goes.

Breakfast:
McGriddle
Hash Brown
Orange juice

Oops again

So I cheated on veganism big time - I moved apartments today and needed to order pizza for my hungry helpers, and I wasn't going to sit there and make a salad while they chowed down...so sue me. 
I did make it to yoga for the first time all week and it felt amazing.
And now to finish off (some of) the last of the moving.

Oops

So remember back when I thought I was totally done with emotional eating?  Turns out my emotions just weren't emo-y enough.
I am super stressed right now.  Work is going through layoffs, I'm moving, going through a breakup, and my good friend/office mate is trying to start an affair with a married guy.  So, the past two nights my feelings have tasted like a large bag of pretzel M&Ms.  Tonight they were supposed to taste like other things, but the only things I could find at the grocery store that seemed remotely appealing were some mustard and onion pretzels and dark chocolate Raisinettes.  Needless to say I feel a little ill right now.  Going to finish the day with a salad and start tomorrow morning with yoga and hope that helps.

Everything in moderation

I'm doing better today, I think.  In most aspects of life.  No diet coke, just green tea, so there's a chance I might sleep before midnight tonight.  Went to pilates; skipped yoga because the usual instructor is on vacation.  It's my third day in a row of no yoga, but I'm finally having a  yogic philosophy about not going - it's okay that I didn't stay, I have a lot of other things to do, and it'll make it easier to go tomorrow morning.
I know being able to relax and forgive myself is key to any diet/fitness routine, but it's one of the aspects I'm worst at.  I'm very all or nothing, and very unforgiving.  Those things apply not just to workouts, but to life, and I think I need to work on that in both areas.

Shockingly profound for a night I didn't meditate.

In transition

It has been a rough month for me.  I've been going through breakups with both a roommate and a boyfriend.  The general situation at work is a mess; they're going through massive layoffs.
I thought all this would make me more motivated in my health/fitness life.  This has not happened.  There's been too much drinking, not enough sleeping, not enough working out.  Some of this is the fact that I'm moving and there's just not time.  And some of this is...that maybe I'm just not a motivated person?  I thought being single I'd have more time to do all these workout things I wanted to do, but this has not happened.  I cheated big time on veganism with a chorizo burrito after a terrible night out on Saturday.  I. Am. A. Mess.
Goals for the week:
More than 6 hours of sleep/night (this is as much as seems realistic, honestly)
At least one workout per day (did not happen today; slept through yoga)
Actually track WW points (which includes all the pretzel M&Ms I just ate.  Good grief.)

Gym classes I should go to:
Wed -  PM Pilates, Yoga
Thur - AM Yoga
Fri - early AM yoga before official furniture moving?
Sat - early AM yoga
Sun - Bikini body?  Yoga

So, so disappointed in myself right now.  On so many levels.